^^岑实话^^

Santa Gary is coming to you!

Merry Christmas! and also Happy New Year 2009!

How are you there? Hope everything is doing well there! 2008 gonna end, do you feel sad or miss him?

For me, I think 2008 not really a good year…happened so many tragedy, sad news, bad things happened and I got denggue fever also, really unforgetable.But I am happy with what I have like my job, my friendship, you and also happy life…although I have some bad experienced in love, friendship in this year…but I still believe they make me grow and brought me a lot of different memories and experienced which I can awared myself always not to repeat the same mistake again in future.

Last week I did a wrong thing, speak something not so easy listen to the audience during Star Live Concert - Shi Fen Hong Concert…My producer scolded me and I’m really sorry about it coz I really dun meant it…I just want to make it fun and bring out the message, who knows what happened to me…My tone and words seems like doesn’t match with the humour feel…so peoples feel I’m very cocky, inpolite…really sorry about that if you are there, please forgive me ya…will avoid this and wouldn’t repeat again in future.

2008 is my most lazy year…but I enjoy this feeling coz life should be relax and enjoy sometimes…after this we must have battle again…now started gym again, bit painful but when I feel the muscle is coming back again to my body, feel good and satisfied la, haha….will recod my new song this two week, hopefully can settle it smoothly…its a sentimental song, my story…

Oh ya, I’m gonna have performance at ! utama this 31 Dec, if you are free that day, come to this countdown show and welcome 2009 together ya…I really need your support coz feel bit lack of confident if not many supporter down stage…come and have fun, scream and applause for me and 2009 la!

let’s hope 2009 is great year la! Have a nice christmas and new year again!!

终极天团！

今年，我是一个百分百享受生活的懒人，只想无忧无虑，没有压力，享受比较缓慢的生活节奏，找回身为一个人的生存意义，结果我找到了。

主持八八六十事已经成为我的生活习惯之一，也算是我的精神支柱，让我每一天都过得很充实，很快乐。虽然这个节目已经陪伴大家将近五年，可是大家依然给于火热的支持，没有嫌弃我这个小小主持人，真的很感动，感恩！谢谢你的厚爱，也希望你的爱与支持可以无限期的蔓延下去，一起成长，一起享受生活的酸甜苦辣！不晓得还可以主持这个节目多久，可能明年会是最后一年了，想到心情就会变得沉重，有种不舍的感觉，担心分离那天的到来，担心会情绪崩溃，担心会因为失去精神支柱而迷失方向。。。虽然如此，我已经做好心理准备迎接那天的到来，毕竟聚散离合是人生的主菜之一，必须享受和接受它们带来的各种滋味！失去了，可能会找到更好的，不要怕，不要哭。。。

没有发片的日子确实很空闲，除了没有压力，不需要奔波劳碌，大部分的时间都不会失眠，因为不必担心销量和口碑的问题啊！还有，因为不必在每个周末都到外坡去宣传，所以我可以在周末和好友们相聚吃饭打牌，尽情的睡觉，看电影舒缓心情！这些都是我失去已久的活动，可以再找回它们，享受它们真的让我觉得很快乐，很幸福！原来简单，悠闲的生活真的可以为疲惫，贫乏和将近枯萎的心灵充电，补充养分，并找回许多对人生的热情和期待，勇敢地为未来画下更具挑战性的蓝图，准备去实现更多梦想！有了目标和计划，人生就会变得很充实，充满意义，所以明年将会是我再大展拳脚的年份，请你一起期待我的新歌，新书和新节目的到来！保证会给你带来感动，惊喜和快乐！

今年，自己在主持方面有不错的成绩，八八六十事，绝对Super Star等节目都继续获得很好的反应，大家对于我的搞笑功力和主持能力都给于很多正面的评价和鼓励，让我有种苦尽甘来的快感，谢谢你的喜爱！客串主持爱自由也让我大开眼界，并找到很多新的主持方式及做节目的新点子，收获丰富！当然和阿Yoon搭档主持的追求完美也让大家看到另一面的Gary，还有主持户外游戏节目的潜力，谢谢阿Yoon的完美配合，为此节目带来很多欢乐和美好的回忆！明年的终极天团又会怎样呢？相信会很好玩，因为和小玉的默契越来越纯熟了，而双方的幽默感也不断增加，最重要的是大家的方向一致，要你看得开心，不想转台！最后，要谢谢所有的工作人员，大家的付出和努力是有好成果的，加油！还有，要感谢不断给我机会的马姐，玲玲，Kim和老板Izham!

 工作上的表现和收获都让我满意，只可惜在感情的部分依然空白一片，非常失败！希望2009年的桃花会旺一些，可以遇到有感觉的有缘人！今年流言蜚语对我的伤害依旧很大，甚至伤害到身边的好朋友，影响了感情，很可恶，很讨厌。。。唯有做好自己的本分，期待上天会有更好的安排！祝福你，圣诞节快乐，2009年幸福如意，大吉大利！J

八度空间为了回馈观众朋友，特地集合全台新旧主持人拍摄了2009年的年历，效果不俗哦！这次大家在造型上都有新尝试，像我的造型就比较都市时尚风，有英伦绅士的感觉，和打扮一样冷酷有型，艳丽非常的小玉和美鑫搭配在一起就擦出了不一样的火花，也完全配合到“大富翁”游戏的世界背景，期待吧！当然，我还有一个配合农历新年的造型，很活泼开朗，带出过年该有的精神和态度，希望当你看到我们的精美鼠垫年历时会有“哇”的感觉！其他的主持人很出色哦，像有配合摇滚的庞客Look，娃娃造型，性感热情的沙滩装等等，真的很多姿多彩，相信你已经迫不及待想拥有一份年历了吧！哈哈。。。耐心等候咯！

接下来的日子将会很忙碌，所以趁着自己还有一些空档就特别抽空到Langkawi 去度假散心，吸收日月精华，充电充电！虽然只是三天两夜的行程，可是整个旅程却是很充实难忘的！到了很多漂亮的旅游景点去游览拍照，像老鹰广场，Perdana Quay观赏帆船码头的异国情调，搭缆车到Langkawi 最高的山峰上观赏全岛的美景，真的很壮观！最让我开心的当然是可以在沙滩上舒服的晒太阳，让汗水自由地横行身体的每一寸肌肤，把所有的压力，烦恼都蒸发，消失在阳光下！好久没有吹海风了，那种久逢故友的感觉真的很爽！就算一整天呆在海边玩水，晒太阳，睡觉，我都无妨，因为那是我最向往的自由世界，不必在乎别人的眼光，不必为别人而活，不必强颜欢笑，不必思考任何问题烦恼等等！毕竟，人活于世上不只是光追求名利和爱情，健康和快乐也是极为重要的幸福元素，偶尔的清闲和放空就可以找到它们，何乐而不为呢？

很感谢我的好友义气相陪，让这个假期变得很完美！试想想，当你看到优美的景色时，有人和你一起分享当下的感觉，拍照留念，那种留下永恒幸福的滋味是多么令人沉醉啊！还有，大家在月光下吹海风，喝酒谈天说地，分享生活上的点点滴滴，感觉是那么的贴心！最重要的是，透过这一趟旅程，我们更了解彼此，找到更多生活的情趣，还有人生的意义！“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”这句话虽然有点土，可是用来形容我现在的心情还是很贴切的！

好开心哦！

Just back from Langkawi…very very nice trip for me! Got to have sun tan although only 2 days in short while but it was enough for me….recharged my battery and feel the energy from sun, sky, wind and sea!

Of course, my best friend also makes my day bright and happy there! So many unforgetabke memories there, thanks for accompany me there… also others who make the trip happenning! Thanks god for giving me such good weather there…sunny, windy and always with blue sky white clouds! Soooo pretty! will upload some photos for you to view soon…

I wouldn’t let myself have any regret anymore, must make myself happy and relax whenever I could!YOu also must like that ya! Enjoy while you still manage to do so…dun let urself regret!No regret!!!NOw, must start to work hard again, everytime same reaction after vacation, haha…humanbeing ma….:)

Still coughing like hell here…doctor’s medicine not working at all for me…why? what happen? Maybe I salah eaten chicken? Maybe I salah drink ice drinks? haiya….please recover me faster god…Bless you with good health lifes ya! Have a nice day!

Love u guys! 8TV rock!

After I posted my blog lately, I received a lot of messages which show different reactions….some very worried, really care and shared the experienced with me, some scolded me also for keep on repeat the same mistake, think they are quite angry and upset with my stupid feeling, haha…

Anyway, really thank you for being lovely and care to me…I will listen what you advised and try to become a happy man here…We must love ourself, so that we have more energy and power to love peoples around us, right? U are one of my target, that’s why I must tell you that I had gone through that for the moment, sure will have better future!

I seldom write something about my feeling in my blog coz sharing my feelings make me feel a bit of insecure but I still didi it coz after I released all my bad mood and feeling…I felt that I have released from the tragedy…safe from the sad world! I’m just an human being, same as u, have every kind of feel and needs, so please forgive me if I did something wrong ya.

How’s ur weekend been? Know a lot of u having exam now, must gambateh ya! Focus and target some topic, tips and u will have higher chances to score! I tried and its work! Must study hard and also very smart so that can get better result! Remember one thing ya, if u have try ur best, then no need to worry the results already coz you will get what you give! After exam should be happy and enjoy, yeh yeh! ^^

So, we must add more oil together in our life ya! Friendship forever ^^

固执的我看透了一些东西。。。

决定要放开，已经没什么眷恋，只是想起从前，心里难免有点难过。。。真得要这么做吗？眼泪流下来了。。。

不明白为什么他们会这样。。。我很珍惜，可是别人却当作是垃圾，真得很可惜。。。别等到突然失去了才哭泣，后悔。。。算了，找些明白这些道理的朋友享受生活好了。。。别因此而闷闷不乐。。。

常常在想。。。如果你害怕或抗拒某样东西的话，应该不会靠近他，取悦他或接触他。。。除非你有自虐症，又或者别有企图，想达到某些目的。。。既然害怕别人的流言蜚语，那就别勉强自己继续活在压力重重的世界里头，离开吧！放手吧！反正你在乎的不是我这个人，在乎的只是你自己和你的感受。。。可是，我们认识了这么久，经历这么多的事情，那些酸甜苦辣的回忆。。。我没要求过什么，对吧？我没做错过什么，是不是？

你们是我最要好的朋友，可是却接二连三让我失望了。。。该说什么呢？我是笨蛋。。。我是该死的笨蛋。。。一再重复自己的悲剧。。。。

所以，我要清醒了！我要改变了！我要恢复以往的生活，情绪由自己掌控，确保自己活在快乐的世界里，就算是一个人也无所谓。。。反正我也习惯孤单的生活。。。寄情于工作吧。。。相信更好地会陆续蜂拥而来。。。期待啦！

好可惜。。。可是没有选择。。。

hi hi, I;m back!
Just up loaded some photos but not much of Singapore trip coz I didn’t take many photos there due to the weather, mood and also didn’t visit any tourist place la….

But the whole trip is ok for me…my friends all accompany me to eat, play and chat…very happy to have them there…Friends always friends, no matter how long we didn’t meet, feeling still the same…still warm and close….

Didn’t buy anything also coz its quite expensive to spend money there…RM2.40 only have 1 sing dollar…can u imagine? haha…dun laugh me and say artist also so calculative ah? I’m also a human being what…somemore economy crisis now, must spend wisely….Actually nothing special there which attract me to spend la…

I saw a lot from you offer me to call you up in JB or Singapore…thanks a lot ya…but I only saw ur mail when I home…too bad…thanks again.At least I recharge a bit through this trip…but I lost my PR oled, hai…what to do, not working there anymore what….

Oh ya, watch my new show? Perfect Chaser…sunday 9:30pm at 8TV…any comments? let me know ya! have a nice day!

Going to Singapore tonight to visit my old best friends there…miss them so much…almost 2 years didn’t meet up,therefore you can imagine how excited for me now, haha…

But I still have some worry also coz most of them are busy there and I scared they dun free time to meet me and I have to hanging around there alone and I have experienced this last 2 year. What a bad memory for me and really scared of that kind of feeling…

We are people that’s why we need to communicate with peoples, talk, laugh and sharing…Especially when we go to a new place right? Friend is important…Thanks for your support also ya
What I’m going to do there? Eat nice food…meet friends…shopping a bit…take some nice photos, hehe…show you next time la! Have a nice weekend!

最近没吃医生的皮肤药，脸又开始敏感了，好惨 ：（

因为听说常吃药的话会对肾脏带来很大的祸害，为了健康唯有忍痛承受烂脸的痛楚！看见自己的脸冒起一颗颗得豆豆，还有一些又红又痒的浮肿物，真的让我有种害怕及不敢照镜子的感觉，信心大跌。。。怎么办呢？现在吃一些营养补助品和定时去做Facial，希望会有所帮助好了。。。唉，怎么我的皮肤会如此脆弱呢？应该是和天天化妆和在强烈灯光地下暴晒有关吧。。。这就是代价吧。。。

很羡慕那些皮肤幼滑的人，没有毛孔，又不会乱乱出油的更加完美，只可惜都和我没缘份，只有空想的份，惨。。。中学时期，大学时期都试过严重的皮肤问题，也曾经靠药物和Facial治愈，但愿这次可以护脸成功，永远告别药物治疗！上帝啊，我想有脸做人，而且是一张好脸，希望你可以成全我啦。。。

一只小小的黑斑蚊就足以摧毁一个人的生命，你说恐不恐怖？

以前听别人说患上骨痛热症是件很痛苦的事，有让人生不如死的感觉，听起来有点夸张，甚至想象不到它的痛苦滋味，直到这次的不幸体验才让我明白何谓病痛之苦，何谓生死之间以及所谓的幸福快乐。。。

刚开始的时候，我以为是普通的感冒或发高烧，看了医生吃了药就能够顺利复原，就像平时那样。谁知道晚上睡觉时身体却不停地冒汗，发冷发热到一种无法以盖被或脱衣服就能解决问题的情况，让我开始害怕和担忧自己的健康。好不容易撑到白天的时候，发觉自己已经全身无力，意识有点迷糊，必须依靠他人才能勉强站立和行动，实在太辛苦了！到现在我依旧记得当时头晕目眩，呕吐发抖的情况，完全无法掌控自己的言谈举止，幸好当时有我的家人在身旁，带我去看医生验血并紧急送院治疗，要不然我肯定昏死在自己的床上。

留院就医的那一个星期是我这一辈子最难忘也是最不敢回想的经验，里头包含了太多太多的滋味，让我成长很多，看透很多人事物。生病就要治疗，可是天天必须躺在很不舒服的病床上，除了睡觉，看电视，吃药，抽血，承受头晕，虚弱的身体状况，还得忍受长期的寂寞，不知何时才能康复出院的压力，以及只能透过小小窗户望向外面自由世界的无形煎熬。所以那时候的我常常想象自己处于阳光沙滩海边，吹风晒太阳游泳，累了就睡觉，醒了就继续玩乐，多么享受和自在的生活啊！结果，越想越渴望，想逃离医院枷锁的冲动也大得几乎失控，幸好医生和护士们都很有耐心地回应我的问题：“放心！很快就会好的了！血小板的数量稳定之后就让你出院。。。”就这样，我带着期待的心情每天关注我的血小板的起落，就像关注股市起落那样，让人心惊胆跳，每一天只能盼望我的血股稳健上扬，换取出院的通行证。

很感激住院时受到各方亲朋好友的关爱，无论是送上花篮，水果，卡片祝福，爱心汤水，救命良方或者是一通电话，一则简讯，一个小时的贴心陪伴都让我觉得人间充满了温情，充满了爱！有些时候，我们忽略了自己的健康，忽略了他人的感受，以为只要有钱就可以解决一切，买到所有，其实钱真的不是万能的，而且也比不上爱，友情和亲情！当你没有健康的体魄时，你要如何去享受你的家财万贯呢？适时享乐，多行善并以助人之心为本，相信大家都会过得很快乐！

别忽视“小”的存在…它的意义，威胁和力量绝对是让人意想不到的！小心咯。。。